Most ppl are on leave today.. demmit. The roads are magically clear for a Monday morning to work. I ain't got no leave yet so I had to work... isk!

My head is pounding, my stomach or more like uterus is screaming bloody murder.. must be coz it IS bleeding... period first day. I wanna cry. Ahahahaha! So manja wanna complain and complain. I need sleep. More sleep.

Since Saturday (note that I slept for like 4 hours only Friday and work on Saturday), we've been up till last night. Saturday evening was spent at KL. We went to Low Yat, and I suddenly realized that we're frequenting that place a lot thanks to my computer geek baby jalan2 look for some stuff, then to Sg Wang coz I needed to buy some groceries and toiletries. So funny go buy groceries in KL when we could do it nearby. Well, kill 2 birds with 1 stone as they say.

Left KL at almost 9, called some peeps and begin to feel tak puas hati when everyone's going for party. And suddenly at about 9.30 at night, we decided to go to genting for the party. So we did, with my trusty satria. Nasib baik dia larat.. memanjang aku puji dia terer ahahahaha. The party was swell.. everyone was sooo loving to everyone.. there was looovvvveeee all around. I hugged n kissed almost everyone hahahahah! Party ended at 4, we lepakked with some peeps at the car park.. till morning and the sun came out.

We left Genting at 9+ in the morning yesterday, got home after 11, got to rest on the bed a while, got up to bathe, and off to Abe's wedding. Abe's modDs friend from MCKK by the way. Failed at trying to swallow the nasi minyak coz my throat felt like sandpaper and the rice felt like sand going tru it, so I settled for drinks only. After, we went to lepak a while with his schoolmates at Gazebo. A while became about 3 hours by the way. Apau and Ipin brought their kids... and I had a blast with the camera ahahaha! To view the pics yesterday, go here. Sooooo cute babies Aariz and Adriana Aisyah. Got home after 7, and I slept from 8 last night till 7.30 this morning.

I would like to blog more, but my head is pounding and my stomach is angry too. I wanna go home and lie down. Bye peeps!! Wednesday then.. n happy hols!

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Hmmm what am I thinking of today? I have no idea myself. I'm kinda feeling woozy this morning. Went out till about almost 3 in the morning last night, and I dragged myself out of the bed at 8 today. Absolutely NOTHING to do in the office, and suddenly I have brain-freeze. I have no idea what to write. But maybe we can talk a bit about irony.

modDs was blog-hopping yesterday, and he found a post in a little bird's blog. modDs didn't know the little bird, and neither did I. The irony was, there is a familiar name signing off that article. The little bird didn't know who familiar name is, as he mentioned in the post that he didn't. He got the article forwarded to him. The article was about The One That Got Away... I got that in my mail a while back, and I circulated it around and maybe also posted it on Friendster's bulletin board. It was a great piece. Now I'm not saying that I was the one who sent it to familiar name. I couldn't remember if I did. But a final sentence that familiar name added in the article was what intrigued me.. it was a sentence he used a lot (to me) once upon a time, something he loved and adapted from the movie Don Juan Demarco. I love you too much, but I can't love you any less. It was edited to I miss you too much, but I can't miss you anyless. Note the grammar mistake (anyless is supposed to be any less). Familiar name wasn't too good with his English. This is also the reason why I'm sure it is the same person. I'm not gonna be perasan here to think that familiar name dedicated that to me, but it was just ironic. So ironic that I'm just gonna let it rest, and I'm not even gonna put the link to the article here.



I got this somewhere. It's in Malay, so it sounds kinda jiwang laaa. Too lazy to translate and I don't wanna lose the meaning.. it's kinda true, read it and think about it. It's about a fish, some water and a bowl of rice hahahaha! Indulge!


Jika kamu memancing ikan....
Setelah ikan itu terlekat di mata kail,
hendaklah kamu mengambil ikan itu....
Janganlah sesekali kamu LEPASKAN ia
semula ke dalam air begitu saja....
Kerana ia akan SAKIT oleh kerana bisanya
ketajaman mata kailmu itu dan
mungkin ia akan MENDERITA selagi ia masih hidup.

Begitulah juga .........
Setelah kamu memberi HARAPAN kepada seseorang...
Setelah dia mulai MENYAYANGIMU hendaklah kamu MENJAGA hatinya....
Janganlah sesekali kamu meninggalkannya begitu saja....
Kerana dia akan TERLUKA oleh kenangan bersamamu
dan mungkin TIDAK dapat MELUPAKAN segalanya selagi dia mengingatimu....


Jika kamu menadah air biarlah berpada,
jangan terlalu mengharap pada takungannya dan janganlah menganggap ia begitu teguh....
cukuplah sekadar keperluanmu....
Apabila sekali ia retak....
tentu sukar untuk kamu menambahnya semula....
Akhirnya ia dibuang....
Sedangkan jika kamu cuba memperbaikinya mungkin ia masih dapat dipergunakan lagi....

Begitu juga jika kamu memiliki seseorang,
TERIMALAH seadanya....
Janganlah kamu terlalu mengaguminya dan janganlah kamu menganggapnya begitu istimewa....
Anggaplah dia manusia biasa.
Apabila sekali dia melakukan KESILAPAN bukan mudah bagi kamu untuk menerimanya....
akhirnya kamu KECEWA dan meninggalkannya.
Sedangkan jika kamu MEMAAFKANNYA boleh jadi hubungan kamu akan TERUS hingga keakhirnya....


Jika kamu telah memiliki sepinggan nasi...
yang kamu pasti baik untuk dirimu. Mengenyangkan. Berkhasiat.
Mengapa kamu masih cuba mencari makanan yang lain..
Terlalu ingin mengejar kelazatan.
Kelak, nasi itu akan basi dan kamu tidak boleh memakannya.
Kamu akan menyesal.

Begitu juga jika kamu telah bertemu dengan seorang insan.....
yang pasti membawa KEBAIKAN kepada dirimu.
Menyayangimu. Mengasihimu.
Mengapa kamu masih cuba MEMBANDINGKANNYA dengan yang lain.
Terlalu mengejar kesempurnaan.
Kelak, kamu akan KEHILANGANNYA apabila dia menjadi milik orang lain
Kamu juga yang akan MENYESAL....


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It's just after lunch, I'm like soooo fullllll I just had fish head curry, some tom yam campur and some kangkung and all for just 2 bucks *gasp* to the brink I'm falling asleep and my laziness is multiplied by about a thousand times.. and I was chatting with ZeN.. and she gave me this cool quiz to try out. It's to find out how ur brain works. There's 20 questions in all, and I took quite a long time to finish them haha! Like taking exam in school.. No right or wrong answers, depending on how you'd answer the question. Try this out guys.. and lemme know of your results.

Take the quiz here. Don't forget to click on the view summary later for the details!

My results?
Your Brain Usage Profile:

Auditory : 50%
Visual : 50%
Left : 50%
Right : 50%

yanz, you are one of those rare individuals who are perfectly "balanced" in both your hemispheric tendencies and your sensory learning preferences. However, there is both good news and bad news.

A problem with hemispheric balance is that you will tend to feel more conflict than someone who has a clearly established dominance. At times the conflict will be between what you feel and what you think but will also involve how you attack problems and how you perceive information. Details which will seem important to the right hemisphere will be discounted by the left and vice versa, which can present a hindrance to learning efficiently.

In the same vein, you may have a problem with organization. You might organize your time and/or space only to feel the need to reorganize five to ten weeks later.

On the positive side, you bring resources to problem-solving that others may not have. You can perceive the "big picture" and the essential details simultaneously and maintain the cognitive perspective required. You possess sufficient verbal skills to translate your intuition into a form which can be understood by others while still being able to access ideas and concepts which do not lend themselves to language.

Your balanced nature might lead you to second-guess yourself in artistic endeavors, losing some of the fluidity, spontaneity and creativity that otherwise would be yours.

With your balanced sensory styles, you process data alternately, at times visually and other times auditorially. This usage of separate memories may cause you to require more time to integrate information or re-access it. When presented with situations which force purely visual or purely auditory learning, increased anxiety is likely and your learning efficiency will decrease.

Your greatest benefit is that you can succeed in multiple fields due to the great plasticity and flexibility you possess.




Totally true, or it would be so cool if it's really true haha! If you guys are interested to find out more about the workings of your brain and what qualities or how your personality changes with the brain usage, click here. The chart will explain it all. Have fun!!

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Today, I'm writing a story. Something that I haven't done in a long long time. It's quite long, so I decided to post it in 2 or maybe 3 installments. Here's the first part. Sorry if it's dragging, don't read it then haha!

"This story is strictly fictional. It has no connections to any real human beings, dead or alive. This is just another concoction of YanZ' twisted mind."




A TIME TO GROW


"Hey, ain't life wonderful? Wonderful, wonderful, wonderful... Isn't it wonderful now?"
I close my eyes when I get too sad
I think thoughts that I know are bad
Close my eyes and I count to ten
Hope it's over when I open them
I want the things that I had before
Like a Star Wars poster on my bedroom door
I wish I could count to ten
Make everything be wonderful again
Hope my mom and I hope my dad
Will figure out why they get so mad
Hear them scream, I hear them fight
They say bad words that make me wanna cry
Close my eyes when I go to bed
And I dream of angels who make me smile
I feel better when I hear them say
Everything will be wonderful someday
Promises mean everything when you're little
And the world's so big
I just don't understand how
You can smile with all those tears in your eyes
Tell me everything is wonderful now
Please don't tell me everything is wonderful now
I go to school and I run and play
I tell the kids that it's all okay
I laugh aloud so my friends won't know
When the bell rings I just don't wanna go home
Go to my room and I close my eyes
I make believe that I have a new life
I don't believe you when you say
Everything will be wonderful someday


I turned off the radio. That song is too depressing. Yeah, it had a nice catchy tune, but I couldn't listen to the song lyrics. It related too closely to me. Demmit I'm 22 now for god's sake. I shouldn't be bothered by this stuff anymore. I don't even live near them. And the best thing is, they don't even live together anymore. Haha! That should save Mimi from noise pollution. Mimi who's still schooling lives with Dad still. And his in-the-early-30s wife. And their 6 year-old son and 3 year-old daughter. Mommy had to sacrifice him wanting to live with his 'new' wife and went back to her hometown. Poor Mommy had to stay alone.

I don't understand why she didn't wanna live with Sherry. Sherry's married with kids, and apparently Mommy didn't wanna interfere in their 'marital life' as she puts it. But still she complains oh-so-very-often to the other daughter living oh-so-far-away that she's lonely. What does she want me to do? Drop everything I have going on for myself and move back to live with her? The sad thing is, I'm not close with Mommy. I just can't live with her. We don't relate in any way. I've grown up with Dad. All my growing-up days, I've been with Dad.

Dad. I missed him. I missed our times. I miss the football matches at the stadium n how he'd wake me up in the wee hours of the morning to watch MU fight Liverpool, fishing, snooker days, our boating times on the sea, crab-hunting, our jogging and badminton days, and our drives nowhere where he'll bitch to me about work, office, and stuff. And I miss how he'll explain to me very patiently all the rules of all the games. Dad is a sports freak. But now, I feel like I don't even know him anymore. I don't know why he does all the things he's doing. Why did he change? We had such a good time when we were young. Me and Sherry, we had great memories of our childhood. The whole family would go on outings, where us kids would be running about and chasing each other, Dad and Mommy will be walking hand-in-hand. Where did it all go wrong? Those memories were shortlived. Sherry was 15 and I was 13 when the whole mess began. And it could never be undone. Poor Mimi didn't have much memories of our 'family' time. She wasn't even in school yet that time.

I did everything for myself starting then. I lived on my own. I became independent so early in life. Mommy became this depressed, sad woman who cried all the time. Sherry became a rebel and stopped speaking to Dad. They all started taking sides. Whose side was I on? Neither. I was never close to Mommy, and Dad was the one who created all the mess. I couldn't blame or side with either of them. Instead, I created a shell for myself, shutting myself from the outside world. I would just watch. I would watch them all, listen to everything, but I never said a word. I never told anyone how I felt. And no one asked. I would go to school, pretend to be happy and hide everything. Nobody knew. Not a single soul. I would cry alone each night.

After I finished Uni, I decided to move on with my own life. I didn't follow my own dreams all the while. I passed my chance to go to boarding school for fear Mimi would be left on her own. She was so dependent, and she needed guidance all the time. Everyone else was too caught up with their own issues to notice her. But now, I sat her down and told her it's high time she looked after herself. We all did at her age. It's time for me to move on and start my life.

Now's my time to grow. But it wasn't easy. Not with no money, no guidance, no support. I was again left to fend on my own. But I know I'm gonna make it.....


....to be continued

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It was not in my intention to post anything today. It's Saturday, half day work for me. I still don't get why they want us to work Saturdays. Firstly, it's only half day; and seriously, no one works. We chat all day, we eat, and me; of course glued to the pc; clearing all my mails, forwarding nonsense and reading blogs. Just now, I went to the reception and sat down a while with The Star. My intention was just to flip through, coz my eyes were sore enough looking at this damn big n bright monitor. Something inside it caught my eyes. And enraged me to the point my head hurts.

It was the Nurul Huda Gani's hearing. The 10-year-old girl from JB who was found raped and murdered inside a Tenaga Nasional Bhd sub-station guardhouse. The accused, Mohd Abbas is trying to push the blame, on the grounds that someone else strangled and raped her before he took his turn. WHAT THE HELL WAS WRONG WITH THIS GUY???? He's a 46-year-old IDIOT, read on and you'll get what I mean. He's saying that he came to the guardhouse, and he saw his friend 'Ngengel' (who?) on top of the girl on a wooden platform. Both of them was naked, and the guy had his hands around the girl's neck while he was doing 'it'. He claimed the girl was motionless and didn't make any noise at all. Duuhhh what do u expect? She might have already been dead!

He then said that after his friend was done, he tried to 'main' (his words exactly) the girl but he wasn't sure whether or not his penis entered as SHE WAS NOT MOVING OR MAKING ANY NOISE. So, he decided to masturbate while holding the girl. Then, another friend 'Jojo' came and had his way. After that, they carried the girl to the toilet and placed her in a squatting position.

This weird fella then happily went on to say that he left the sub-station to go and get a tube of heroin worth RM20, (what??) and when they came back, police was there. I mean, WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH THESE PEOPLE???? DIDN'T IT SOMEHOW OCCUR TO THEM THAT WHAT THEY DID WAS WRONG???? They didn't even bother to hide the body or run, they just disallowed the police and villagers to come in as it was a RESTRICTED area.

And now, he's saying that he's not to blame.

"I did not kill the girl. I had no intention of killing her."

"It was other people who did that. Why should I take the blame?," he said at the end of his written statement. WTF????



Can someone PLEASE go shoot the bugger on the head, between his eyes. Or shoot the dick. Better still. Shoot it between the balls.


You can read more about it here.


She was only 10 man.. she has so much going on in life. What did she know about all this? She haven't even gotten her first period. Sick sick sick sick sick people we have around us. I don't know why this matter bothered me so much, but right now, I'm having mixed emotions. Anger, sadness, sympathy. I'm so furious I wanna cry.

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I was checking Friendster yesterday; and on the bulletin board was a post from Fatin, a friend-acquaintance of mine. She's addicted to these nonsensical quizzes that ask u from what you're wearing, to who do u love, to what ur fav songs are, and what u wanna do now, bla bla bla .. not that I blame her, I was once doing all those stuff and filling up the bulletin boards too, out of boredom and laziness. I sure had a lot of time then. I opened her page, (as I wrote her a testimonial the day before) and lo and behold! I found a testimonial from Khalid, who is modDs' senior at school, and whom we always meet at events and stuff. Khalid and I somehow got close, and we'd turn to each other for advices and stuff, so I was wondering, how did Khalid know Fatin?? Fatin is Shah's girlfriend, Shah being Amin-X's best friend, and they go waaaayyy back to their schooling days. Hmmm...

So on msn messenger, I asked Khalid. He said that he sometimes lepak with Fatin and all, as Fatin lives in Subang and Khalid always hangs out with the Subang clan. I explained to him as well my side of the story, on how I knew Fatin. Khalid knows Shah and he knows Amin-X, but he had no idea they were friends much less best friends. What a small world! we declared. Then we had an idea. Mind you, it was office hours, and we both had work to do, but this sounds really interesting. We clicked on the "friends in common" button, to see how many mutual friends we actually have. This only works if you really just add those u know, minus all those ppl who add u just to gain publicity in Friendster. We had 19 friends in common. Minus 2, coz they're Regenerate and Atmosphere hehehe; here's the explanation of how we got to know some of them.

Shah, and Fatin, explained earlier. Modar, duhhh! Farina, his girl. Bachin, junior at school. Naquib, we introduced them at an event. Muni, Awin, Azah; I figured his clubbing friends, as they were mine too hehehehe. Weween, just found out they knew each other at an event much earlier. Weween was my classmate and schoolmate way back since we were in Standard 2. Quite amazing too. Zaza, Weween's sis. Kandaq, his batch-mate and schoolmate. Kandaq married Berny, who I found out a few months back was actually my senior in school and I didn't really notice it earlier haha! The other 4?

1. Azfa
My story: She was staying with us back when I stayed with Naquib in Ampang. I was damn close to her, we shared a lot of things in common. She was also Noel's ex; Noel being Naquib's best friend.
His story: He just got to know her. She works in the same office as Jojo, his good buddy in MCKK.
Fair enough.

2. Fik
My story: She was Lisa's next-door-neighbour in Muar. Lisa being my very good friend and schoolmate and also coursemate in Uni. We used to hang out together with Fik in JB.
His story: He got to know her through the Net. They chatted for quite some time.
Fair enough.

3. Hafiz
My story: He's from JB. We're from different schools, but same batch. We used to know him as Hafiz Pendek hehehe. No need to ask why. We meet a lot back then, in district's prefect gatherings, debate competitions, around town, and he was also in UTM a while. He's now dating Sazela.
His story: They went to the same Uni in Melbourne. He's quite close to them, went for barbecues and such together before.
*Gasp!*

4. Sazela
My story: She was my junior back in Convent JB. She was also my junior prefect. We were quite close then. Reunited with her only like a year back.
His story: Same Uni with Hafiz too!
*Double gasp!!*

WHAT A SMALL WORLD!!! Those are only a few examples of how small the world is. I'm sure all of u has realized the fact that the world is not such a big place after all; one way or another. The world works in bizarre ways if u ask me. You'll always be amazed at how we're actually connected to others. I mean, like me and Khalid, we just knew each other less than a year. I was from JB, and him from Penang. We went to school in separate states, and Uni in separate countries. But we ended up having some weirdly-connected mutual friends. And we only got to know about those who are in Friendster and added us. I wonder how many there really is in the world. Like I was amazed at how me, my best friend of 18 years Mynn, Naquib, Amin-X and ModDs were connected. I am a true believer of the six degrees of separation theory. Some extracts from a technical explanation:

"A dynamic model of a society is studied where each person is an uncorrelated and non-interacting random walker. A dynamical random graph represents the acquaintance network of the society whose nodes are the individuals and links are the pairs of mutual friendships. This network exhibits a novel percolation like phase transition in all dimensions. On introducing simultaneous death and birth rates in the population we show that the friendship network shows the six degrees of separation for ever after where the precise value of the network diameter depends on the death/birth rate. A SIS type model of disease spreading shows that this society remains always healthy if the population density is less than certain threshold value."

If you're interested to find out more about this, go check it out on this test and explanation page they did based on Kevin Bacon here. Or if you'd like to join in an experiment to prove this, click here.

I heard that Friendster was actually started to prove this theory... hmmmm... anyways, now I know why they made us sing this song in school....

It's a world of laughter
A world of tears
It's a world of hopes
And a world of fears
There's so much that we share
That it's time we're aware
It's a small world after all

There is just one moon
And one golden sun
And a smile means
Friendship to every one
Though the mountains divide
And the oceans are wide
It's a small world after all

It's a small world after
It's a small world after all
It's a small world after all
It's a small, small world




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We were at Genting; me, modDs and his Damansara hommies.. what we were doing there I can't quite remember.. might be an outing or something of such.. I remember Amirul and the rest being there, making lots of noise and ruckus as usual. The weather was somewhat gloomy.. suffocating thick grey fog all around us. Visibility was so so low, but we were having fun. Amirul was going out with this local celebrity, but I can't seem to remember what her name was.. the only name I could come up with is Jamal Abdillah haha! He can't be dating a guy now can he? I'm sure it's a girl, I just can't quite put my finger on her name right now. I'm so so so bad at names.

modDs wasn't feeling too well, a bit of flu. Weirdly, he was wearing his Levi's jacket with nothing underneath, and I had on another black jacket of his.. I could see he was getting cold, so as we made our way through the fog and the thick mist towards the cafe to get some food; only the 2 of us this time; I took off the jacket and passed it to him to wear. I wasn't feeling cold, I was running around n jumping about like a stoned excited kangaroo and that sure hell kept me warm. But it made modDs look even weirder, with the denim jacket underneath the black jacket. I wondered why he didn't bother to swap the layers....

We sat at a table at the cafe. It was an outdoor cafe, and a waiter with a green apron and white chef hat came to serve us. But, instead or taking our orders, he started telling us that the celebrity Amirul was going out with is about to leave; and Amirul is nowhere to be found. modDs, in apathy as usual, just nodded and continued looking at the menu. The waiter once again stressed the urgency of us getting Amirul to come to the car park now, as the dear celeb won't leave without him, and she's holding up traffic. What an idiot, I thought to myself. Why can't she just call him herself? Typical celebrities. They think the world will stop moving have they not get their way.

Gently, I suggested to modDs to call Amirul on his handphone. modDs took out his Nokia 6230, (weirdly, that was the same phone Amirul is using)and started wiping off the condensation from the air that had settled on the phone in the cold. I remember seeing the camera on the back as he wiped it softly to avoid scratching the lens. Suddenly, the lights went off. "Oh, no. Power failure," I muttered softly. modDs stopped moving, and suddenly whispered to me, "B, u realize what is happening?" "What?," I asked, wondering why he whispered. "Rompakan!!" Huh?? What a funny choice of word.

Suddenly, somewhere from behind me, I felt a cold sharp blade pressing against the right side of my neck. Simultaneously, a hand covered my mouth from the left side. I looked up and saw a man dressed in black with a black mask covering his face standing over me. In an instant, my reflex made me do a taekwondo movement (hehehe). With both my hands, I pulled on his hand covering my mouth and threw him over my head to the front. He was caught off guard and the knife fell along with him. He scrambled up from in front of me and in a moment he was gone. So is the handphone from modDs' hands. What went through my mind then, was how familiar his hand smelt. It's something unexplainable, you know, like the cigarette smell stuck to the fingers, or curry smell after you had lunch with your hands. I was going like, "Wait! I know who the robber is!!"

I woke up with a jump and sat up straight on my bed, startled and dumbfounded. I was somewhat hyperventilating. And I was thinking hard how did modDs know there was gonna be a 'rompakan' before it actually happened. And also who the robber actually is if I really knew him. Shit. It was a dream. It was a very very very very weird dream. I glanced at the clock and it showed 2.30 a.m. Then I realized I really need to pee badly. Afterwards, I lay on the bed a while, trying hard to remember the details of the dream clearly so that I may post it in my blog today. Hehehehehehehe.


Anyone knows what this dream means? Any guessers? *I might be regretting asking soon enough*





Lunch time peeps!

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Lately I noticed that I'm not writing much.. there'll be a lapse of a few days between posts.. why aa? Am I going dumb?? Haha! Time contsraint? maybe. I have like these so many thoughts in my head, but whenever I'm thinking, I do not have the time to blog, and when I do wanna blog, god knows where all these thoughts run to. Maybe I'm going mad. Hmmm... wanna talk about life, well.. life seems to be going on a straight line for me. Not to say I'm bored with life, but not much new going-ons to talk about. I'm still very much happy and fulfilled with my love life, of course. Hehehehehe. That one if definitely not on a straight line. But I can't keep talking about love now can I? Or else people will be getting the wrong impression that I'm some kind of love-fool, romantic, softie, and 'jiwang' person so to speak. *denial* That is a part of me I'd like to keep to myself; let out once in a while in unexpected ways. I kinda feel like writing a short story and posting it here, just like old times when we used to do it in school, but......... hmm we'll just wait n see.

Anyways, today, I got this in an email. I'm sure most of you guys have received this kind of mails before; in one form or another. Somehow it got me thinking a lot. I, for one, do believe that what goes around comes around. It's kinda part of the laws of the universe, or else we wouldn't be spinning on earth now would be? What a boring life it will be if we're just stagnant in one place, and no evil nor kindness gets around. I got goosebumps after reading this story. Think about it.





Pay It Forward

He almost didn't see the old lady, stranded on the side of the road. But even in the dim light of day, he could see she needed help. So he pulled up in front of her Mercedes and got out. His Pontiac was still sputtering when he approached her.

Even with the smile on his face, she was worried. No one had stopped to help for the last hour or so...was he going to hurt her? He didn't look safe; he looked poor and hungry.

He could see that she was frightened, standing out there in the cold. He knew how she felt. It was that chill which only fear can put in you.

He said, "I'm here to help you, ma'am. Why don't you wait in the car where it's warm? By the way, my name is Bryan Anderson."

Well, all she had was a flat tyre, but for an old lady, that was bad enough. Bryan crawled under the car looking for a place to put the jack, skinning his knuckles a time or two. Soon he was able to change the tire.
But he had to get dirty and his hands hurt.

As he was tightening up the lug nuts, she rolled down the window and began to talk to him. She told him that she was from St. Louis and was only just passing through. She couldn't thank him enough for coming to her aid.

Bryan just smiled as he closed her trunk. The lady asked how much she owed him. Any amount would have been all right with her. She already imagined all the awful things that could have happened had he not stopped. Bryan never thought twice about being paid. This was not a job to him. This was helping someone in need, and God knows there were plenty who had given him a hand in the past.

He had lived his whole life that way, and it never occurred to him to act any other way. He told her that if she really wanted to pay him back, the next time she saw someone who needed help, she could give that person the assistance they needed, and Bryan added, "And think of me."

He waited until she started her car and drove off. It had been a cold and depressing day, but he felt good as he headed for home, disappearing into the twilight.

A few miles down the road the lady saw a small cafe. She went in to grab a bite to eat, and take the chill off before she made the last leg of her trip home. It was a dingy looking restaurant. Outside where two old gas pumps. The whole scene was unfamiliar to her. The waitress came over and brought a clean towel to wipe her wet hair. She had a sweet smile, one that even being on her feet for the whole day couldn't erase. The lady noticed the waitress was nearly eight months pregnant, but she never let the strain and aches change her attitude. The old lady wondered how someone who had so little could be so giving to a stranger. Then she remembered Bryan.

After the lady finished her meal, she paid with a hundred dollar bill. The waitress quickly went to get change for her hundred dollar bill, but the old lady had slipped right out the door. She was gone by the time the waitress came back. The waitress wondered where the lady could be.

Then she noticed something written on the napkin. There were tears in her eyes when she read what the lady wrote: "You don't owe me anything. I have been there too. Somebody helped me out, the way I'm helping you. If you really want to pay me back, here is what you do: Do not let this chain of love end with you."

Under the napkin were four more $100 bills.

Well, there were tables to clear, sugar bowls to fill, and people to serve, but the waitress made it through another day. That night when she got home from work and climbed into bed, she was thinking about the money and what the lady had written. How could the lady have known how much she and her husband needed it? With the baby due next month, it was going to be hard.

She knew how worried her husband was, and as he lay sleeping next to her, she gave him a soft kiss and whispered soft and low, "Everything's going to be all right. I love you, Bryan Anderson."

Author Unknown


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Genting Hotel charges per night : RM 160
Salem Revelation Party tix : RM 35
Some extra2 stuff ;) : RM 30 each
Outdoor Theme Park on weekends : RM 33
Look on my Baby's face on Solero Shot ride : PRICELESS

For most things, there are cash. For others, there are cameras. Hehehehe.



Sorry love, didn't mean to embarass you here, just that I simply adored this pic and I wanted to share it with everyone. Soooooooo CUTE!!!!!!!!! Comel kan my baby nyer muka gayat??? wish i was sitting next to him then. but then again thankful i wasn't sitting there with them, or else papy would've caught my face on camera too. mesti muka cam hantu masa tu ahahahahaha. Credit goes to Papy, Lin's other half; for being able to focus the camera and take their piccies while the Solero was falling at top speed.. (I wouldn't even remember how to snap a pic.. and most probably the camera would have fallen off hahaha!)

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Hmmm... I actually wanted to write a new post on Friday... but... as time didn't allow me to... and I actually forgot too hehehe here goes...

Let's just start with Friday... After work, went home, bathed, waited for baby boy to come fetch me.. then we went to Carlos Taipan in Subang to meet up with Lisa, Lin, n GbuM.. dah laa sesat kat sana! I never could understand the road in Subang USJ or anywhere nearby. Plus I couldn't stand the jam.. ada org tu kata dulu pernah duduk Court 10 pun blh sesat.. silap masuk simpang semua... hehehe. We were supposed to meet Weween for a while to pass her the gamats for her Papa.. janji jumpa kat Shell, turns out we went to different Shells n waited. Hahaha! Ngok ngek jugak... We were supposed to meet at Carlos at 9.30, but at 10.15 everyone was at different places. Me n modDs waiting for Weween n Zul at Shell, Lin at HSBC, GbuM at Gazebo, and Lisa was driving around frantically trying to collect everyone ahahahaha! Was quite funny that sight.. everyone was calling everyone else to get them to meet up but nobody wanted to leave the place they're waiting at... Last2 dekat pukul 11 jugak baru duduk makan... After the meet-up n dins, we went home n watched Infernal Affairs.. good movie.. though modDs got pissed off to the max as the good guy died ahahahah!


Lisa, Lin n Me.. way back when hehehe

Saturday, someone was supposed to spend the day with me, but he woke up at 5.30 p.m. hahaha n I had to wake him up at that.. we went out almost 7.. drove around.. had drinks at Plaza with the hommies, then we went to Hartamas to buy some DVDs.. we got Blood In, Blood Out, The 13th Warrior, Blow, n The Eye. After, since it's still early and some friends were over at the Square or HQ as we call it, we went over and decided to watch Akademi Fantasia... ahahahaha! We went against all our principles and beliefs and sat down with the so so enthusiastic crowd, the place was PACKED by the way, just to see what all the vibe is about. We thought hell, why not, it's the last episode anyway, there's no way we could get stuck, which is precisely the reason why we didn't wanna watch it before, we were afraid of catching 'the disease' of wanting to be stuck at home on Saturdays. So finally, we got to know who is Zahid, Farah, Linda, Bob, Adam and Kaer. What did I think of the whole matter??? Much too publicised, but kinda cool to be in the vibe. I'm still pissed at Linda n Adam winning the 2nd n 3rd placing, yeah I know the whole show's based on popularity, not talent; but I can't help getting pissed coz Bob didn't win. He's got a damn bloody good strong voice.. but... who am I to judge.. as Lin says, "Ko tak tau perangai diorang camne, Bob to cam over sket.. zahid tu best tau.. ko patut tengok diary baru ko tau.. mesti ko sokong dia.." yeah yeah yeah ok.. maybe.. but I DIDN'T watch the diary or any previous concerts.. so I can have my say no?? Whatever it is, I'm sooooo glad the whole matter is over, and I am thankful I never watched it before.. kalau tak nanti sure lagi sakit ati...

After, we watched Blow.. cool movie.. and modDs got the inspiration to sell drugs, get rich, and never having to get off your ass... haha!


Sunday me n Lin had our 'lesbo' date. We went to KLCC coz she wanted to look for Papy's b'day pressie.. was fun.. long time since we 'dated' haha! Met half of hommies there, and had the time of our lives disappointing all the rempits in the house who tried to woo Lin hehe.. coz they were half the time thinking of our sex orientation.. yeah well let's just say the way we walked together that day, you would be thinking too. What do you expect? We were like sisters.. love walking hand-in-hand, and hugging each other, and... I shall stop there. ;)


Later last night, we fetched modDs n his 'lil sis Allia from the Hoobastank concert or Hoobastink as he called them earlier and we went for a drink. Comel sangat the dear went and babysat his 14-year-old 'lil sis to watch the concert.. hehehe...



So... I think that's all the update for now.. this one also so long already the post... Gotta get to work now, it's Monday, and BIG BOSS is here.. Later peeps.. take care!!

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I'm using this pic for my msn messenger today, and Lisa, a friend of mine pointed out that it was a very unique pic. Jopull my best friend snapped this pic at Man's brother's wedding. At the time we saw this pic, we thought it was damn good as it looked like I'm the main subject of the pic, and modDs is lurking behind.


Let's do something interesting here.. tapi kalau tak jadi gila malu siallllll When I was in Form 3, I had the most interesting English teacher, Mrs. Wong. She would teach us English interactively, and she was the reason I loved the language so much. She got us thinking out-of-the-box, and pointed out to us in many ways how beautiful this language is. One day she would bring a really old book and get us all to read a passage from it n together we'll analyze it and exchange ideas on what we really think is the message that the author is trying to put through; and the next day she'll bring a radio, with a tape of a really old song, and we'll analyze that.. I remember she brought the song Close To You once... it was way way cool. Or sometimes it would be pictures, or an article, or conversations. She taught us how to evaluate emotions, figure of speech, everything. At that time, no other teachers would teach differently. All strictly by the book. Boring. She got me in love with poetry, literature, and I would proudly say she's the reason I can speak fairly-fluent English with few grammar mistakes. Hehehe perasan. Oh, not to mention she made all of us carry the very-big-n-thick-n-heavy Oxford dictionary (or Mr. Richard as she nicknamed it) each day to school. Nothing much to complain about though.


So let's try this... let's try to get ideas from everyone reading this, what they can conclude or interpret from this picture. You know, something like getting critics to say what they really think of the 'Mona Lisa's smile'. No right or wrong answers here, just wanna get the ideas flowing... Ahahaha. I'm bored with nothing to do.


Anyways, it's past office hours now. I got my new Dell PC today. Demmit the monitor damn big, and the keyboard makes no noise no matter how hard I tap. Shit now have to try harder to pretend I'm busy. And harder to hide nonsense since it's so big n glaring. Oh, the best part is, I CAN'T INSTALL YAHOO MESSENGER OR MSN MESSENGER!!! *shite* HELPPPP!!!! Thank god for the web versions. Though it's just not the same... *sob! sob!!* Damn the higher security features in XP Pro.


Ok, gotta go. Bye peeps!!

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Ok, is it just me or did anyone else notice how Monday mornings and Friday evening are more jammed up than usual??? How come?? Is it that more people go to work Mondays than other days?? And are there people who LIVE in their offices throughout the week and go back only Friday evening to make the roads a miserable place to be on for the rest of the 'normal' people like us?????


Sorry for the cranky mood. I had to wake up early. I was on the road for an hour just to travel 25kms. And I had to spend rm2.10 one way. My kaki sakit already pressing the clutch. Yes, I still drive a manual car. Yes I know it's almost outdated. I don't care. Makes me feel somewhat a racer. Hahaha!


Talking about jams, now I feel like some toasted bread with peanut butter on one side and strawberry jam on the other. *slurp!!!* But Nutella'll do the trick too. Or maybe Goobers.. Lady's Choice pun boleh laa.. those striped peanut butter with grape jam... STOP!! Tak boleh keje camni...

Eiii does anyone remember the cartoon Jem and the Holograms? I actually found their website.. and there's also a 80s children website but apparently it's undergoing some upgrading of some sort. Hehehe suddenly my memories took me back there.


Jem! (Jem is excitement) oh
Jem! (Jem is adventure) oh
Glamour and glitter, fashion and fame!

Jem (Jem is truly outrageous)
(Truly, truly, truly outrageous!)
Whoa, Jem (Jem), the music's contagious (outrageous)
Jem is my name, no one else is the same Jem is my name!

But we're the Misfits,
Our songs are better,
We are the Misfits, the Misfits
And we're gonna get her!


Apa laaa nama villain Misfits?? Serious bunyi jahat gila.. like gargamel and azrael.. so cute kan cartoons has really evil-sounding villain names hehehe. Oh, I also found The Smurfs Official Website. Got me remembering papa smurf, smurfette, brainy, jokey and vanity smurf (i loved him heheh).





We finally watched Spidey2 Saturday!!! Yeay!! was so cool... hehehe.. though a bit too emotional I think... and last night we had dins with Weween n Kupu2, Zul, Amir, Hanis n Nabil. Long time since we lepakked, and also first time I met kupu2.. n all was cool. Might have more meeting-ups in the future.

Ok, I will be getting to work now. Got 5 days to go to the end of the week.. Hmmmm...


p/s: It's S'pore's National Day today. A holiday for them. Yeah I know a lot of ppl will kutuk me for this. But I don't care. It's considered my tanah tumpah darah, and my mom's and my grandma, and all the rest of the family. Hehe. NDP tonight anyone???

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Heya peeps. Yup, it's Friday. Though it is still another working day for me tomorrow. I'm feeling damn sleepy and tired now, hence the break to blog a bit. Got tonnes of things on my mind today. I've realised that these past 3 weeks I've been doing nothing and everything at the same time. I've been learning a lot, but somehow it feels like the more I learn the less I know. So how? Coz I've been wanting to present something to the boss to show him what ideas I have. But my ideas come and go. They linger for a bit, and I researched a bit more; then I felt it wasn't worth looking into and I left the idea for something new. So so so hard to have to be thinking from both the technical and also the marketing side. Not that the boss minds. He kept telling me I look too tense, that I should lighten up and be more cheerful. Weird for a boss to be telling his employee that huh? I just wanna prove my worth, to show everyone though I'm just a wee kid, I can do some big stuff. Hmmmm.... more pondering for me to do.


Today all the bosses are here. Yup, meetings has been going on since morning. Two mat sallehs are here, as well as the Datuk and Eric too. I'll be meeting them soon. I'm kinda scared to, what if they don't like me? Like they'll be thinking, who is this kid girl they chose to research n look into new business? What can she do? Or maybe I shouldn't even bother. Who cares what they think? So the only thing I have to do now is prove myself right?? Aarrrggghhhhh!! more thinking. I've been surfing n reading n learning from all these mags and technology websites I think I'm going blind. How to apply all these stuff I read? Can these things sell in Malaysia? What do I do next? Shit I hate this. The boss will say, "it's ok.. no rush for u.. just relax n take ur time.. ur still young n in the learning process.."

Maybe I'm putting too much pressure on myself.



Let's talk bout something else. What we've been up to this past week? My dear modDs didn't get to drive to work this week, so everyday after work he takes the LRT to Kelana Jaya n I will pick him up from there. Poor dear. There are days when he had to stand from Ampang Park all the way to KJ with the heavy laptop. After, we'll go for drinks, or hang out a bit at home.. then I'll send him back. Sounds very boring kan?? Hahahaha! What to do.. it's a yuppie's life. Plans for weekend includes going to watch Spidey-2. So pathetic kan tak tengok lagi.. hehehe.. And I really need to do laundry n clean up the house.


Ok, I should be getting back to work. My short break turned out to be a long entry pulak. Later peeps! Chiows.



p/s: I added a new link. Say hi to ZeN my new-found friend from S'pore. She's into taking piccies too.. She's got some great stuff posted on her blog. Hello ZeN!!!

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Sorry for the late update. Busy at work, time doesn't permit me to blog much. Can't believe these words are coming from me. Hahaha! Yeah I know by now you guys read about our Genting trip. And like modDs said, the highlight of the whole trip was actually the theme park. I felt like a kid again. We laughed n we screamed our lungs out even though the rides weren't half as scary. Not talking bout the Solero though, that one almost killed our egos. Our knees were soft n wobbly as jelly after we got off that. We went on almost everything, even the spinning teacup and Ferris Wheel and we took pics as if the rides were the best in the world! Well, the point was that we had the time of our lives. Here are some of my fav pics. Waiting for more from Lin's camera.


He looks so macho kan? My Baby sooooo handsome heheheheh



Me pretending to be scared though we were just riding the teacup!


Budak-budak nakal


ModDs photography skills unleashed

Our future plans include going to Sunway Lagoon and going on all the indoor and also outdoor parks, next Genting trip to include indoor park too, and also maybe Berjaya Times Square. Heard the rides there are cool as well. Anybody been there? Any feedback?



Lessons learnt these past few days (not just in Genting):

~Rides, although scary like hell, must be tried; for the thrill, so as not to miss out on the fun, and also to get the jelly-knee effect afterwards. Haha!

~Kiddie n stupid boring rides such as the Ferris Wheel and Spinning Teacup must be tried too, coz u paid for the whole park, and kalau tak naik rugi.

~Do not underestimate the weather in Genting. Though the evenings were warm, it can turn DAMN COLD in just a few minutes. And afternoons are bloody chilling too even though the sun is out. In other words, don't be so cocky as to not want to wear jackets, or at least bring it out with u. Yours truly learnt the hard way, and modDs had to pay the price. Hehehe.

~Never let your bad day ruin others'. Uncontrolled emotions let out in 2 seconds can screw-up some very important things and u'll end up losing the chance to make ur already-bad-day much much better by the one u love.

~Misunderstandings and miscommunications are bad, but not as bad as squabbles and pointless fights. And, never ever be too egoistic to admit ur mistakes, coz u'd be surprised how easily things are solved when u do.

~If your boss brings u to see some very important people, always smile, and carry urself confidently. Nod and acknowledge whatever they talk about, and look as if u understand them. If the boss asks why u're quiet, just say u're learning by observation. Haha!!


p/s: those who would like to view the full album of our genting trip, click here. Enjoy!!

Bye peeps. Better get to work now.


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