*I do swear that I'll always be there.
I'd give anything and everything and I will always care.
Through weakness and strength, happiness and sorrow,
for better, for worse,
I will love you
With every beat if my heart*

From this moment life has begun
From this moment you are the one
Right beside you is where I belong
From this moment on

From this moment I have been blessed
I live only for your happiness
And for your love I'd give my last breath
From this moment on

I give my hand to you with all my heart
Can't wait to live my life with you
can't wait to start
You and I will never be apart
My dreams came true because of you

From this moment as long as I live
I will love you,
I promise you this
There is nothing I wouldn't give
From this moment on

You're the reason I believe in love
And you're the answer to my prayers from up above
All we need is just the two of us
My dreams came true because of you




No, we're not married yet. Hehehehe. Just felt like dedicating this post to the ONE, for always being there for me, for caring, for having the courage and initiative to do things out of the ordinary for me (like asking for my hand in marriage from my parents), for going against his principles (remember the flower incident?), for being my strength, my eyes, my ears, and just for him... for all that he has ever been to me and so much more... I just wanna say I love him with all my heart and soul and I could never ever ask for a better person...

We'll be 7 months tomorrow. Not too long, but the connection I feel to him, seems like we've been together forever. And the things we went through and endured, only we will ever know. And I can't wait to spend the rest of my life with him. Everyday with him doubles the love I have in my seem-to-be-already-full-n-overflowing heart... and I anticipate the days to come. So here's to you baby, THANK YOU.





Ok, ok, I will quit that here. Don't want everyone to puke n throw up... on a lighter note.. I'm in office now.. but I am in such a happy mood!! Going to Genting after this!!! Gonna go on all the rides like small kids... take pics everywhere... and BIG PARTY TONIGHT!!! It's gonna be like a reunion with friends from last time n now, KL n JB all coming down to this place.... all out partying!!!! It's also gonna be sort of a holiday for me n modDs, since we've never been on one except JB n S'pore trips which doesn't really count... I can't wait to celebrate our anniversary at the party!! Nostalgic moments for us hehehehe...


So bye peeps!!! I'll update u all Monday!!!!



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See?? I told you guys I would be complaining in no time.  But I'm not really complaining laa, just letting off some steam. In this one-and-a-half weeks,  I have used up like a year's quota of my already-lazy-n-rusty-n-full-of-nonsensical-thoughts brain. In a few days time, I got to know about how the optical fiber is manufactured, the whole process, the fundamentals of optical networking,  how to incorporate optical networking with wireless and mobile and satellite, and the 3G technology, wireless technology, and today it's CRM and how it's related to 3G. Talk about business development. This is brain development to me.

I actually read Newsweek, Business Week and The Edge now, to keep up with the ever changing technology. Not to mention, subscribing to newsletters and stuff online. Daddy would be proud. Hehehehe.

Earlier today, Boss(I really call him that to the face. Sounds cuter n also shorter than the whole encik or mister thingy) asked me to look out for international trade shows, fairs, exhibitions and conferences this year. I found a few, in China, Vietnam, Korea and ITALY!!! I'm so hoping he'll suggest Italy to the Datuk and I hope Datuk lets him take me along. Hehehehe. Opportunities.. never push them away. Especially if you're jakun like me, never been outside Malaysia except S'pore and I don't even have international passport but too arrogant to admit that to the Boss. Haha!

Everyday, I come home, exhausted. Coz too much brain usage. I just sit here at my desk in the office facing the computer a lot, but my brain works all day. Hehehehe. But always worth it to be able to see baby at night n hugss n kissy... hehehehe. So yucky!. Wanna update more, but I have to leave. No keys to the office, and everyone's leaving. Later!!




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Yeah, I think this topic is interesting enuff to be discussed. But firstly, a quick update on weekend. We spent weekend shopping!!! Hehehe.. Saturday me, modDs n Lin went to KL, to the Zara warehouse (thanks to Kupu-kupu) and me n Lin boronged some jackets, pants n tops. Now me can look exec in the office hehehe. Poor baby wanted to get some workclothes too, but men's wear are so damn expensive!! We made up for it Sunday, we went dating2 n jalan2 in OU n he got to buy a very nice pin-striped pants and a shirt.. Sure hensem baby pakai hehehehe.. had so much fun sunday, i acted manja2 the whole day n mengada2 nak mampos sampai aku sendiri menyampah hahahaha!

 

 
OK, anyways, back to the title topic. Me, modDs n Lin were watching tv Friday night, and Majalah 3 did a feature on this new phenomenon. To me, it's more like an infectious disease. This reality-tv-cum-gateway-to-stardom thingy. We discussed further on it and agreed that it all spawned from Asia Bagus. Then came Pop Idol, American Idol, etc. etc. By now, I think majority of Malaysians can sing along to the Akademi Fantasia theme song, memorized the whole AFUNDI routine n number, know each contestant or students as they're commonly known as even by their father's names and secretly have a favourite of their own. It's a wonder how many would be glued to their tv on Saturday nights for the weekly concert. And also those who would watch it every night for the report or diary or whatever they call it. I don't even want to start watching, for fear of catching the 'disease'. Many friends have fallen prey to this, even my housemate Lin, who wouldn't go out if the third world war starts on Saturday between 8-11 p.m. Haha!

Reality tv started from the infamous Survivor, then came on more concepts n ideas for reality shows such as Fear Factor, Temptation Island, Explorace, The Amazing Race, bla, bla, just to name a few. Now, everything is caught real-time on camera. Just waiting for the day someone comes up with the concept of The Truman Show. Well, maybe they already have with the Osbournes. Weird world we live in. Everyone's talking about privacy, but everywhere it's invading our lives. The thing I hate most about these reality shows is also the fact why it's so popular. The way they potray and reveal emotions. Real human emotions on air. It's like reverse-psychology thing, the way they play with the minds. It's a whole mind game. Everyone can see your emotions. Your fears. Your failure. Your weakness. You're transparent on air. The world knows you inside out. To me, that's scary.

Now, is this whole pop star thingy gonna work?? Right now, what they have on Malaysian tv, to name a few that I know of, Audition, Akademi Fantasia, Who Will Win, and Malaysian Idol.  Does these programs really able to bring up new talents and make some new stars? If you ask me, I don't think it's really fair. A lot of people out there can sing, can act and have multi-talents than those u can see on these shows. Why hasn't these people come forward? Maybe coz they don't want to be mocked, laughed at, and criticised publicly. Most of the shows are based on viewer's votes, which everyone knows aren't really fair. They will vote for the most glamorous, or prettiest, or most handsome, or the funny guy, instead of this real fat lady who has the sweetest voice but just can't seem to catch the aundience's attention. Then she gets eliminated. Where does her talent go?? This is why the world is infested with more Siti Nurhalizas n Britney Spears' n Jessica Simpsons and all those other teeny-boppers. These stars can sing, no doubt, but I dare say not as well as their popularity is potrayed. They're just so over-rated. In Malaysia, for example, Siti Sarah. That girl has good voice, but why is she not as popular? Coz she's not as pretty as the rest?? It's so unfair. Now, the hottest thing to watch is the Malaysian Idol auditions, the way some people sing, and how they're criticised publicly. Some has real good voice, but didn't make it, why? Coz they seem not to have the 'charisma' n charm that's needed in this industry. Some break down and cry. Some got pissed off n starts screaming away. Funny how people react huh?? Just accept the fact. The judges are tired enough I believe, seeing the number of people wanting to be stars, and all their behavior and antics are not helping. If you wanna be a star, be prepared to accept criticism. Accept what others or the so-called experts say, why get mad?

 
Ok, i think that's enough. This topic can go on and on.. but these are only my personal views. If anyone would like to comment on this, it will be great to see other's opinions. I am not really against this whole thing. I'm just wondering where all this leads, and what will be next. What culture would all this bring into our lives? More to ponder on.... for now, it's lunch. Bye!!



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Hehehehe... today is Papa's birthday.. wanted to wish him in my earlier post, but then again he's special enough for me to dedicate a whole post to right? By the way, he's not my Papa. He's modDs Papa. I call him Papa to everyone else, though not to his face hehehe. Tak berani beb! To me, Papa always looked so business-like, hence I'm kinda scared to talk to him. Plus the fact that fathers are always so garang.. hehehehe. Mummy I still can handle, but Papa.... getting there. Hehehe. I always malu with him, coz I feel like such a small-fry around him. I mean, the man is just reaching half century of age, but check out the achievements he made! I'm so nobody around him...

One thing I respect about Papa though, he never gave up on his kids. I mean, look at how many colleges he sent modDs to, and he managed to flunk almost all of them but still Papa never gave up on him, and kept trying so that his son will get better education. And modDs is just the first son. He has 7 more trials to endure. Imagine that. Papa can remain open-minded, and gave full trust to his kids to think their own way through life, but he and Mummy will always be around, in case the kids fall and need their help. Hell, his parents support all of them no matter what they wanna do! That, to me, is true courage as a parent. I sure hell would be damn scared to let my kids to whatever they want, for fear they'll turn out like me! Hehehe.
 
 
 
So here's to Papa, whom I hardly ever had a conversation with, but always hear stories of:

Happy 50th Birthday Papa!!

 
Hope he likes the card and the shirt me n modDs picked out for him yesterday. Pastu Papa marah pasal dia nak pakai kereta and kitorg leh layan pegi shopping balik lambat. Hehehe.
 
There'll be family dinner tonight, to which I am invited, but contemplating if I should go. I don't wanna intrude. In other words, I am shy. Hahahahaha!


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I'm at a cc. Ahahaha. No net for almost a week, and I've almost gone mad.


Been living the life of a 'penganggur terhormat' the past 4 days.. sleeping late... waking up even later... no purpose to wake up early what.. so what have I been doing the past few days? Cleaning the house, getting very very healthy doses of sleep and dvds.. bla bla bla. Oh, the only thing I look forward to each day, was hoping that modDs didn't drive to work, so that I would have the honour of fetching him each day. That is my purpose of life this week. To fetch my yuppie modDs from work. Ahahaha.


Been a bloody long time since I've felt quite so useless like this. Left this life a long long time ago. Monday, I woke up with a jump at 8 and wondering what the hell I am doing in bed, and feeling like I should be somewhere at work or something. Took quite some time to realize I'm on holiday. Ahahaha. Should have gone back to JB and spent some time with me family huh? Naaaaa.... they're all busy with their lives anyways, and I'm conserving money.


Arrggghhhh!!! Getting quite late, gotta join the jam for the drive to see my love. Bye peeps!! Later!







FACT: After logging on msn, checking the blogs, Friendster, gmail, hotmail, myspace, I feel a whole lot better. Missed the keyboard. Ahahahahahahahhahaha. What has the technology world turned us all youths into? Geeks???? Yeah!!!

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This is the last post I'll be posting from my desk here in office... Today's my last day here... I'm having mixed feelings. Yeah I know it's been nothing but complaints... but I do treasure everything I've learnt while I was here. Not to mention friends...

Teh ais kat mamak bawah : RM1.20
Nasi Goreng kat kafe atas : RM3.00
Claim outstation : RM500.00
Friends I made who will stay with me till the end: PRICELESS

My closest allies.. Thariq/Jopull/Mamat, Zul/Panjang n Fahimi..... gonna miss them so much. Gonna miss our lepakking times... our mengular times.. believe we once went for movies and pool at like 3 p.m. on a working day???? Our lunches n drinks wherever whenever we feel like it.. (macam company bapak kitog).... The fun we had in Pangkor... memang layan kepala sendiri jek tak peduli org lain... everyone else must have thought we're a bunch of kids wasting the company's money ehehehe (memang pon)... They were the reason my working days here were fun.... Ahahaha pasni diorg dah takde 'minah' lagi kat opis... sukati diorg jek panggil aku minah.. mentang2 aku ganas! Pasni Mamat n Panjang dah takde geng nak isap okok... ehehehe... *sob! sob!* aku yg sedih....


I'll be having a short holiday.. maybe about 3/4 days only, then I'll be starting work at Opcom.... tanak cuti lama2 nanti jadi malas..


Thinking about it, so much memories were gained whilst I was working here.. maybe not just from the office, but outside as well. Lunch dates... friends... stuff.. experiences... hmmmm......

"People come and people go, but the memories always remains..."

Metallica pun setuju.. ehehehehehehe..



p/s: be patient if blog ni pasni lama tak update.. takde net kat rumah kan.. ahaks!

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Just something to think about...



When we meet the right person to love when we're at the right place at the right time, that's chance.
When you meet someone you're attracted to, that's not a choice, that's chance.
Being caught up in a moment (and there's a lot of couples who get together because of this) is not a choice. That's also a chance.

The difference is what happens afterwards.
Will you take that infatuation, that crush, that mind-blowing attraction to the next level?
That's when all sanity goes back, you sit down and contemplate whether you want to turn this into a concrete relationship or just a fling.

If you decide to love a person, even with his faults, that's not a chance. That's choice.
When you choose to be with a person, no matter what, that's choice.
Even if you know there are many people out there who are more attractive, smarter, cuter and richer than him or her, and yet, you decide to love them just the same, that's a choice.
Infatuation, crushes, attraction comes to us by chance. But true love that lasts is truly a choice. A choice that we make.
There's a beautiful movie quote that I believe is so true about this: "Fate brings you together, but it's still up to you to make it happen."
We came to the world not to find someone perfect to love..... BUT to learn how to love an imperfect person perfectly...




Cheers all! I'm going home early hehehe.


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Today, I would like to declare that modDs is officially my hero. Not that he hasn't been, but now it's official. Actually I would have preferred him to tell the story, but since he's always busy, I'd write a bit in and maybe he'll fill it in.


We were just back from JB. We were there the whole weekend. Friday night to Sunday night. I loved him just for coming with me. He sacrificed the Old Boys' Weekend for me. I know how important their once-in-a-year event is, and I asked him to make his own choice. I wanted to go back anyway. It's time. The time when I really really really need to go back at that particular time for no particular reason, just something that can't be explained. And in the end, he decided to come with me. Partly a gesture, towards our half-year anniversary. Forgot to mention earlier that 1st of July is our official half year together.

He spent the nights at my Sis' and I went back to Dad's. He wasn't afraid. And the heroic thing he did? Here it is.

Saturday morning, I came over with Daddy to Sis' place. We had breakfast with Mom and all and we were preparing to go to S'pore to see Nenek. Suddenly, he told Mom and Dad..

modDs : Auntie, Uncle, saya nak cakap sikit

Somehow, I got the chills, and I ran for cover. Into my sis' room. I was panicking and sweating all over. Cold sweat. I didn't know what exactly he said and how, and by the time I came out, it was almost over. The session where he told my parents and asked for permission. To marry me. I asked him later what he said exactly, and being him, as usual, he forgotten about it already. Haha. But it was something like

"Saya nak mintak restu Uncle n Auntie untuk kawin dengan Yan"


WOW!! That was almost the most heroic thing I could ever imagine anyone to say. And he said it. My hero said it. About the most beautiful thing he did for me. That, to me, is true machoism. We were not joking around. We're really getting married. Thank god my parents accepted. And they were telling him to do away with all the 'leceh' adat stuff and make it easy and simple. So, now all he has to do is discuss with his parents on the date they're planning to meet mine. Then we'll be engaged. I'll be modDs' fiancee. Imagine that. *grins*


modDs n me parents after the heroic deed hehehe

Then we met Nenek, and Mom related the news to her. She seems to accept him, and modDs can actually hold a convo with me grandma. Imagine that. Cute gilerr. I introduced him to my aunts and uncles.


modDs 'layan'-ing my nenek

Saturday night we went out for a while with me bestfriend. We needed our sanity back. Too much time with family can kill a person. Not too mention we're both dying for Marlboros. Ahaks!

Sunday, we went to S'pore. Just the 2 of us go dating2 around Orchard Road. Like a tru blue tourist couple with the camera and all. Haha.

Spent almost the whole day there, came back late in the evening, and took off on our journey home at night. Reached KL past midnight. Tired but very very happy. Oh, by the way Weween saw us by the roadside at the bus station while we were waiting for Daddy to fetch us from S'pore. How ironic. She just came from KL in the bus. She called me up and asked, "Apa korang buat tepi jalan tu?". We must have looked silly, coz modDs was sitting on the curb, trying to snap a pic of the gutter or something by the road, and I was standing behind him with my knees rested on his back and was swaying about to the song playing in my head. Hihihihi.

We did a feedback about the trip on our way back, and so far it was all good. His description on the whole thing? "REFRESHING". Haha! What a word to use. That is one cute guy. Can u guys imagine it? This is the same guy I go to parties with, the same one I laugh and joke around with, the same one with all the piercings and stuff, the same one I had to always push his hair away from his face. And he could actually ask for my hand in marriage from my parents. I don't know about you guys, but I am impressed.


Bye peeps. I wanna go home and catch all the glowing butterflies flying about free in my room. They kept me awake half of the night. I need to get back to reality.


Me 2 naughty nephews and modDs with me extended family






For more pics on our trip, click here


FACT: I'm dating a 'macho' man. Hehehe.

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How to make a yanz

Ingredients: 1 part intelligence 1 part brilliance 1 part instinct

Method: Add to a cocktail shaker and mix vigorously. Serve with a slice of sadness and a pinch of salt. Yum!

see? I'm all intelligence, brilliance and instinct. Not too hard to make me huh? I totally agree with that thing.. even the sadness part ahaks!


if i do it with yan, i get 5 parts of competetiveness, 5 parts self-sufficiency and 1 part ego.

hmmmm.. coolness! u guys agree this is me???


*just in the office and bored.. thanks picha for giving me something to waste my time on teehehehehe*

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